Wednesday, June 15, 2016

Hats

I wrote and read this at my Grandpa's memorial service a couple of weeks ago. Although I feel any words I can say about him and who he was to me simply fail to truly express how much I love him, it was very healing for me to think about the life he led and reflect on how he influenced mine.

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Grandpa wore a lot of hats. Grandpa had one for every occasion, and I thought I’d tell you a little about each of them.

Grandpa was a farmer and could often be seen in one of his cowboy hats. He always seemed most at home when he would take us to the fish farm or show us the peppers he was growing in the garden. Grandpa knew so much about the land and the crops, and loved telling us kids about his latest secret for making cherry tomato plants grow big and tall. I remember trips out to the dairy and being so happy but getting so scared petting the calves, and the way their noses tickled my hand when I tried to feed them—but I sure loved being out there with the security of having Grandpa by my side.


Grandpa also had an assortment of trucker caps, which he often wore outdoors or out on the open road. Pretty much all of my most joyful memories growing up involve traveling and being outdoors with Grandpa. I remember summer trips as a kid to Wisconsin to visit his brothers and family, and to Washington to visit Aunt LaVonne and the cousins. In 2002, Grandpa took our family on a trip to Maine, where we ate huge lobsters with melted butter and searched relentlessly for moose in Acadia National Park. I loved riding the pontoon boat at Namakan Lake with Grandpa at the helm. Namakan is where Grandpa taught me and Heather how to fish, and he was the most patient teacher. I’d watch with awe and fascination as Grandpa skillfully cleaned the fish for our dinner. Maybe most of all, I loved our many special trips to the cabin at Fish Camp, bird watching and taking photographs and making smores on the deck and reading books and playing cards while eating Red Vines. Grandpa was always so good at cards, and it seemed like he almost always won--but we were never sure if it was because he was always the scorekeeper. Grandpa helped give me a magical childhood, and my love of travel and the outdoors definitely come from him.


Grandpa also wore a Cheesehead. Enough said. Go Pack Go.



Now I know that a bow isn’t technically a hat, but a bow usually ended up being placed on his head when we were opening presents, so I think it counts. If Grandpa had a love language, I believe it was gift giving. Grandpa took so much joy in buying gifts for everyone in his life. Many of you have probably been on the receiving end of a sweet gift from Grandpa. Along with Grandma, he was the most generous, giving person I knew. Each Christmas he bought a beautiful piece of jewelry for all the women in the family that he had thoughtfully picked out for each one of us, and when I went away to college Grandpa would send a box of Ghirardelli chocolate brownies to me right before Christmas break during finals week. I know giving gifts was Grandpa’s way of showing how much he cared for us and thought about us. Little did he know that he was the greatest gift of all.



I loved when Grandpa wore his newsboy caps and fedoras because he always looked so dapper. Grandpa was the most tender-hearted gentleman I ever knew. One time Grandma told me that after they first got married, she and her girlfriends would get together to chat, and the girls would inevitably end up complaining about their husbands. They always asked Grandma why she had nothing to say. Grandma just said it was because “she had nothing to complain about.” Grandpa and Grandma were true partners in life. They did everything together, and set the ultimate example of love and selflessness that Daniel and I try to emulate.


One year for his birthday when I was maybe 6, we gave Grandpa a cap that said “World Class Grandpa”—and I’m pretty sure that sums it up. I’m not sure a lot of people can say that their Grandpa was one of their best friends, so I’m very grateful that I had that privilege. I was always so proud to be his granddaughter. Grandpa was always there-- attending every basketball game, birthday party, dance recital, concert, and graduation. His unfailing support for our family was the best example of how to invest in the lives of those you love. And Grandpa loved a lot of people. He was a father, brother, grandfather and friend to so many. His smile and sense of humor had a way of disarming everyone he met. You couldn't help but be happy around Grandpa, and that's probably what I'll miss the most.



Grandpa wore many hats here on earth, but now he wears the best one of all—a radiant halo. He was the best man I ever knew, and his life has forever changed mine.

Some of Grandpa's other hats:











Friday, January 22, 2016

2016

2016 started out rough. I'll spare you the gruesome details, but the very first thing that happened to me when I woke up on January 1st involved swallowing ants. Looking back now it's comical, but it was one of those semi-traumatizing incidents that took me a few days to find the humor in. Anyways.

Friends, I don't believe in omens, and despite my ant incident I still feel that 2016 will deliver a quality year. I've chosen a word for this year that I hope shapes my approach to how I design my days: balance.

I've noticed consistently over the years that I am the most happy when I feel a sense of balance. Like when I have enjoyed a hard, sweaty workout and then indulge in something sweet. Or when I enjoy a home cooked meal, and also take the time to do the dishes before moving on to the next thing. It sounds silly, but too often when I'm going a million miles an hour all day I don't focus on having that balance, and I just want to rest. But I've learned how much I like earning my rest time; to me, only when it's earned does it truly feel restful.

So I'm looking forward to a year of balance--not depriving myself of simple joys, but also being cognizant of my responsibilities and making sure they get accomplished in a timely manner. I look forward to more reflection, and doing what it is that I feel moved to do, whether that be journaling, listening to music, reading, exercising, cleaning, etc. etc. The temptation after a long hard day of work or an event when I'm on feet for 14+ hours is to want to simply rest. And sometimes that's okay. Balance gives me grace for those times.

May your 2016 be productive for your goals, restful when necessary, and full of dreams realized. Here's to a balanced year!

Malibu, January 2016. The colors were so breathtaking I had to pull over on my commute home to capture it.

-S